Mehhhhhzap!

Not feeling particularly motivated today. Very scattered and all over the place. I guess these things happen. My diet and sleep have been so fucked lately that there isn't much hope for my brain. Yesterday was bizzare -- my loss of appetite situation reached a new peak. Food absolutely sucked. I had half a bowl of cereal and half a bowl of soup and a slim fast, because it was the only thing with vitamins that I could stomach. Work was absolutely absurd, and triggered a fainting spell which I managed to pull myself out of before keeling over behind the desk. Afterwards I was completely drained. Yet didn't go to sleep until 4 in the morning, which has become kind of a pattern as of late. But I suppose not being able to sleep because you don't want to is better than having insomnia! I feel like I'm rolling down a hill. Exhilirating decline. But not decline in the adult 'my life is in ruins' sense; it's the child-like abandon sense. Which I suppose is my modus-operandi. So all is well! Mmm, problem solving via blog. Love it.